Sunday, November 7, 2010

"Destiny, I feel, is also a relationship - a play between divine grace and willful self-effort."


The end of another season in Bar Harbor has come and saying goodbye this time was extremly difficult. With how much I have moved and transistioned in my life, I am normally good at handling goodbyes. The past two days (for me), I was a mess! I wish that everyone could have an experience(s) like I have had in Bar least just once in their life. To be able to have both beautiful surroundings and meet incredible people from everywhere is such a gift. But also the how you are stretched and pulled as a person, shows you alot about who you are. It's a life experience that everyone needs to have. This season brought a complete new set of memories and friends. I was able to spend two incredible months with my little sister, precious time that I will always cherish. A few of my very best friends and my Mom and Gina were able to come and visit and experience this place I love.

There were to many wonderful moments to list all of them....from great dinners with friends, quiet time with my sister, working with the neatest people in the world, learning about myself and just taking to time to breathe.

I believe that self discovery is a life-long process ( or at least that is how it feels in your twenties) but this past six months I have learned alot about myself. I learned that when you get a phone call that shakes your universe you have no way of preparing yourself for how you will react. That when you get news that could forever change your life, the thought of losing someone you makes you stop. Completely freeze, stop breathing and you feel suspended in time. Everything in you wants to shut down and just not think about it. It's in those moments that you really see what you are made of. I've also learned that it's ok to draw boundaries in your life. That when someone crosses the line to many times in your life, its OK to say "enough". Because at the end of the day its your responsibility to create a happy, healthy life. That sometimes your willingness to constantly grant grace is taken advantage of, and in order to preserve your own happiness you have to walk away.

Leaving this season, I am entering a completly unknown period in my life, which is terrifying and exciting at the same time! I can't wait to see where the next few months will lead. Where I will be, the people I will meet and how life will change. Looking into my life I am forever humbled at the wonderful people that are apart of it. I may not know where things are going, but I have a group of people around me that make life a happier place.

So here's to finding your destiny.....<3